He's Sovereign Still

This week I have been battling many feelings and not really talking about them much, because I feel as though I need to handle them with God.  Like many this week is a hard one to come by because of what we all know it reminds us of - the death of three amazing boys that will never be forgotten and one of their birthdays is today.  Not only that but I have been fighting the reasons of not going to Tallahassee this weekend and going.


I am growing in Christ, and I learn new things each and every day from many amazing and Christian people - there is NO doubt in my mind why I have them in my life.  He knows I have been planning on going to Tally for nearly a month now and it has been riding my mind about what He thinks about it.  All sorts of things came up this week about why I shouldn't go - my ride there suddenly wasn't able to go, Matt's Aunt is in the hospital fighting lung cancer, there is no girls going, etc.  SO many things were telling me that it's not meant for me to go; and then today happened...


When I woke up this morning I knew we weren't going to end up going, but I felt like I wanted to go; and the only reason why is because I would finally get to see my best friend Morgan from Alabama! I haven't seen her since December and I miss her so much, it's not even funny! Well, I'm going and I'm leaving tomorrow.


I feel as though I'm going to prove a point that I want to prove and I'm going to stick with Jesus on this one.  There is no doubt about it that I will be around alcohol and bad language, but I don't have to take part in it and I won't.  I'm going to see someone I love and someone that understands my morals of why I don't do certain things.  I feel as though this is going to be a test, and I'm not going to fail.  I don't give into temptation very easily, and this weekend will be no different.  I am going to have fun, but I'm going to have fun the way I feel I am supposed to be having fun and the way Jesus wants me to have fun.  


It's still weighing on my heart that I shouldn't even be around all this sinful nature, and I know that, but for whatever reason I'm being told to go.  The way to speak and teach lost people is to be around them for a little while.  I will only be there until Sunday, and I can do a lot in that many days.


I'm going to stay strong and "stick to my guns" and I really don't care what people think about it!